Tomorrow or friday i will be booking an appointment to see a  therapist about my self confidence,  anxiety,  and my ever so accruing depression.   Most of you know of when i came to the forum on a really rough day and just poured my soul out to most of you,  and received such great support. 
The only person holding me back from this is myself,  and i came to that realisation that i'm not here to impress anyone else.  I'm put here to make myself happy,  and be confident in the skin i am wearing,  be happy with the choices i make in life and live life normally.   This is a huge step for me and i'm ready to be happy again.